i know in my heart and my head its over. i know it will never go back the way how it was. the bridges are far more than burnt. together, we burnt our bridge to ashes. 

but why do i think of you every time i cry? when im having a bad day why does my head still think to shoot you a call? why do i long so badly just a friendly smile or hug from you. i think i miss you and im really not sure why, cause i still really don’t want you back in my life. i think it’s not you i miss. its the fake bad twisted comfort of you i miss. or what if i had this backwards the whole time? why am i so confused

when will i move on?